[Note: I've decided to title my blog posts with lyrics from whatever song I've been listening to a lot lately. 'Can't Hardly Wait' by the Replacements has been on heavy rotation lately, and the first lyric is ringing true for me. Exhaustion comes more quickly here in Madagascar, with the extra exertion required of living in a foreign culture, and at night my grand plans of letter writing often gives way to a 9PM bedtime. So, please know that I am thinking of each and every one of you, even if you haven't seen a letter from me yet.]
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| With my new friends Sarah, Christina and Amy in Sandrandahy |
Internet access at last (albeit just for a few hours), and how can I begin to sum up the past five weeks in Madagascar? My life has changed so utterly and completely over the last month that it’s impossible to even begin to describe it. I’ll offer a few favorite moments to color in the lines: goofing off and dancing to Europe’s “The Final Countdown” with my host sisters while doing dishes. Getting pineapple (mananasy) juice on my Malagasy notebook because I brought it to the dinner table to practice sentences. (The pineapple here is the best in the world.) Taking a truck of questionable safety standards to the market in Manjakandriana with my fellow trainees, and then having to get out while the driver worked to get it unstuck from the rainstorm-ruined muddy road. However, probably the most Peace Corps poster-girl moment was when I sat with my host sister eating cassava sweetened with the Vermont maple syrup that I’d brought my host family as a gift.
To get to Madagascar, you fly to the edge of the earth, and then you fly even further. It is unfathomable to think about how far away from home I am now. After a day of staging in Washington, DC, the 30 of us trainees boarded a plane in Dulles to start the long journey to Mada. After 10 hours we landed in Dakar, Senegal for refueling, and then promptly lifted back up into the sky to continue our trip, arcing over the coast at sunrise as the small Senegalese fishing boats set out from the beach in search of the morning catch. After an overnight stay in Johannesburg, we boarded another plane to Madagascar, and all felt our hearts jump as we began our descent over the lush mountain ranges in Madagascar’s highlands.
The most immediate feeling I had upon arrival was that of relentless uniqueness. From the black worms that I accidentally crunched under my sandal twice in one day, to the green burrs that clung to my jeans when I walked around the training center campus, everything is new and different here. I remember listening to birds calling early in the morning as I law awake with jetlag insomnia on my first night at the Peace Corps—what bird was crying out? My constant companion during my month-long homestay was an electric blue butterfly that flew along with me everyday as I walked down the hill from my house, its wings beating in a shade of blue I’d never seen before in nature.
It’s hard to shake the feeling that I am simply not designed to be in Madagascar; my fair Scottish-Eastern European skin and blue eyes require constant applications of sunblock and donning of sunglasses and hats, and my ample height causes me to constantly whack my head on low ceilings in the houses that are designed for the very petite Malagasy. The country seems to know I don’t belong here, too, and has been exacting revenge for my transgression in the form of constant insect bites (mosquitos and fleas), searing sunburns after just an hour of exposure (even when wearing sunblock), and intermittent gastrointestinal distress (which is to be expected anywhere, of course). It’s a bit ironic that the two items helping me most to survive here are a British water filter and extra-strength French sunblock—funny how colonialism breeds ingenuity.
But despite that, I’m walking up relentlessly happy every morning, and I’m beyond thrilled to be where I am and doing what I’m doing. Someone asked me last night if it felt weird to not be sitting behind a computer all day, and I have to say that I am loving it. The month-long internet diet that was forced upon us actually felt very liberating and freeing, although I am nevertheless thrilled to be back online for a short bit. The strangest part of pre-service training has had to be the change in scale of my life. What I mean is that I now find everything in life to be magnified—things that would not be a big deal at home are suddenly gigantic here. For example, my biggest stress lately was a small Malagasy language test. Would a somewhat insignificant language test cause me to wake up with anxiety every morning back in the US? Probably not. Additionally, there are some other stresses and anxieties that come with being thrust into a fishbowl, where you’re suddenly paired with 28 other people you’ve never met before, and everywhere you go, people stare/laugh/point/yell “vazaha!” (white person) at you. But I think I’ve been handling it as well as can be expected.
Our month-long homestay ended last week and we’re currently on a 6-day tech trip visiting current volunteers to get a sense of what it’s like “in the trenches”. It’s been a whirlwind but generally a lot of fun, because we’d all been itching to get out of Mantasoa and see a little bit more of Madagascar. My homestay family were just simply awesome, and I feel that I really lucked out. Not only did they live on top of a hill with the most beautiful view in town, they were probably the kindest, most loving people I’ve ever met. I can’t even begin to describe the fear I felt on my first dinner with them, when I’d only been studying Malagasy for 2 days and suddenly had to communicate with them. But the days got easier as my Malagasy got better, and I was able to sit around the table and have short conversations with them after just weeks of study. As one of my friends remarked, we learned more Malagasy in one week than he did in an entire year of French class at home. On my last night with them, the family presented me with a birthday gift: a beautiful lamba hoany (traditional Malagasy printed fabric) as well as some inexpensive jewelry. Tears welled up in my eyes from the sheer magnitude of their generosity. This is not a wealthy family by any stretch of the word, and the gesture was both humbling and overwhelming. I once read a piece of advice from a former PCV which said “let people be generous, no matter how poor they are”, and it was what ran through my mind as I tearily thanked them for welcoming me into their family for a month.
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| With my host family on my last day in Mantasoa. |
Language note: my favorite Malagasy words are “skoubi-dou”, which means flip-flops, and was undoubtedly started by someone who had a pair with Scooby-Doo on them; ”mitsangatasangana”, which means to take a walk for pleasure-- this I mainly like because I can finally say it; and “umby” (oom-beee), which means “cow”, because it just sounds cute. However, I now need to start learning my specific dialect, Antesaka, which requires me to turn all my S’s into “sh” sounds. (Example: “salama” becomes “shalama”.) This causes all kinds of hilarity among my fellow trainees.
My dialect is one spoken in the Sud Est region (“Oh yeah, Sud Est yeah!”) in Madagascar’s southeast coast. Yes folks, this means I’m going to the beach! I’ll be serving in a town called Vangaindrano and will be working with an organization called COLDIS to help spice producers improve their exports—so my projects will involve cloves, cinnamon, ginger, and other spices. YES! I’m really thrilled that I will get to use my culinary background, and I’m already brimming with ideas. I have one more month of pre-service training, and then I head down there (a 2-day journey from Tana) around May 5th. I’ll be joining an (in)famous group of tight-knit volunteers down in the Sud-Est (with the aforementioned slogan), so I am looking forward to beach bonfires, eating lobster for Christmas dinner, and gorging myself on the thousand different kinds of local fruit that’s available there.
I’ve been cobbling together memories and vignettes from the past month, which is giving this blog post a smorgasbord-esque feel. I apologize for not being more concise. It’s just nearly impossible to sum up a month that has seen my life swing in such a different direction. I hope that future blog posts will help do it more justice.