And the invitation is for...

MADAGASCAR!!!!


I had kind of guessed this is where it would be, based on info I found on the Peace Corps Wiki site. And I am most definitely THRILLED! So if anyone out there has also received an invite for Madagascar/February 2012, give me a shout!

You wait for something for 10 months, and then one day, it's there.

I knew yesterday that I was getting an invitation, but this morning I got an email saying my toolkit was updated. I logged in to the toolkit and saw this, and then it hit me: this is really happening! After so many months of agony and delay and speculation, all of sudden I am officially a Peace Corps volunteer!

At long last!

After my call with Peace Corps placement on July 28th, I was expecting to receive some news about an invitation within days, as most people seem to do after that call. But a week passed, and then 2 weeks, and I began to get worried that I was being pushed to the bottom of the stack. I sent a desperate email to my recruiter, and she advised me to send an email to the placement office to ask if I was transferred to another placement officer or something. I did that Tuesday-- and lo and behold, last night I got an email from my original placement officer saying that she'd call me tomorrow (aka today.)

This morning my mom told me that at noon, Vermont Public Radio was running a story about the 50th anniversary of the Peace Corps, and talking about the fact that Vermont has the highest number of returned Peace Corps volunteers per capita than every other state. As I was listening I thought, how funny would it be if my placement officer called right now? And just like that, I saw a 202 phone number appear on my cell phone! It was indeed her, calling with a couple follow-up questions (to confirm I'd be ok serving in a Muslim country, that I'd be ok not being open about being Jewish, and that I am willing to learn a local language in addition to French.) I said yes to everything*, and then she said that she is inviting me to serve as a small business development volunteer in Francophone Africa, departing in February 2012! I did a little dance and an internal squeal, and thanked her profusely. I won't know the actual country until I get the physical invitation in the mail next week, but I am incredibly happy because it's exactly what I wanted to do-- just 5 months later than I was hoping for. 

At this point, knowing about my posting is a relief more than anything else. The past 4 months have been excruciating as I waited for placement to contact  me, but the past 3 weeks have been absolutely horrific. I kept having dreams that I'd be delayed for a year or that I wouldn't get an invite, and every day that passed after that call without hearing from my placement officer made me continually question my self-worth and suitability as a volunteer. So to know when and (sort of) where I will be going will go a long way to putting my mind at ease. I will have a country update next week!


So now the question really becomes about what to do with my time between now and February? Unfortunately my job is ending at the end of the month, and although I have some work lined up, one is a seasonal cooking job that ends in mid-October, and the other is freelance work for my old company (Food Network) which I am not sure how long it will last. One thing I've been thinking about doing is applying to be a WWOOF volunteer on a farm in France, maybe for a month, where I could work on my French before leaving. Apparently I will need to learn an indigenous language even though I'll be in a French-speaking country, so I want my French to be as good as possible before I leave for Peace Corps. But I do still need to make more money before I leave, even though I have now (finally!) paid off all my credit card debt and saved a decent chunk of change for traveling within Africa during my vacations. What job would hire me for 3 months? Maybe I could find a temp thing... let me know if anyone has ideas! I am open to pretty much any location, but if it's an expensive city to live in (like NYC), I would need to be making a good amount of money... 

*The part about not talking about being Jewish is somewhat difficult for me, because it's not that am ashamed of my faith and identity. It's that I recognize that in order to become a Peace Corps volunteer (which is a manifestation of my commitment to chesed and tikkun olam), I will need to not talk openly about being Jewish. In essence, in order to practice my faith, I will need to pretend that I am not. Ideally this would not be an issue, but according to my placement officer, it is pretty necessary to serve as a volunteer in Africa.

(wo)man plans, god laughs.

I've been a "planner" my whole life- relentlessly envisioning and planning for months or even years ahead- but it's something I've been trying to rid myself of in the past few years. And if the Peace Corps process has taught me anything, it's that you can plan as much as you want, but you also need to anticipate 180 degree changes in those plans. Case in point: I found out Thursday on my call with placement that I will definitely not be leaving until 2012, most likely in February or March. I knew that I was delayed from my original September nomination, but I was hopeful that I could still leave in 2011, or January if I had to wait till 2012. But February or March? That's painfully close to a rather ominous birthday that I was hoping to be out of the country for.

The actual call with the placement officer was pretty good-- I talked about my desire to use my business background to make a difference, on how I could apply my skills to small businesses in developing countries. She asked me a lot about my feelings on being Jewish in a country where I might encounter a lot of anti-Semitism, or not actually be able to say that I'm Jewish (my answer was that I'd be comfortable not self-identifying as Jewish if that was for the best, but I'd prefer not to serve in the Middle East/Northern Africa due to my connections with Israel, which, if they came to light, could put me in danger if someone misinterpreted them as being extreme Zionism.) At the end of the call, I asked the question I was desperate to ask but dreading hearing the answer to: when could I expect to leave, and what could I expect to be doing, given the Peace Corps budgets cuts? Her answer gave me the aforementioned 2012 timeline, but also the news that I might not even be able to serve as a business volunteer-- I may only be qualified as an English teacher. Really, an English teacher, despite the fact that I've had 7+ years of real-world business experience? Yes, she said, and gave some examples of projects that require skills such as accounting, which I don't have. I begrudgingly said that I understood, but also said that given that I'll be taking 2 years out of my career, I'd much rather do it to be a business volunteer so that at least the time is somewhat contextual to my goals in life. I can't see it looking that great on a resume to see someone dropping off the career ladder to teach English for 2 years. I want to use my time in the Peace Corps as a springboard for pursuing an MBA and transitioning to a career path focused on promoting sustainable businesses around the world as a way to enhance living conditions without aid [again, me with the planning]. Would teaching English put me on this track? I'm not sure. She did also remind me that the actual project I end up working on could be totally different from what I am nominated for-- I could end up getting to a village to work on business development, and then they could say their greatest need is help rebuilding a school. So that was a good reminder that again, you can plan however much you want, but you can't plan for everything.

The other question I asked was about location, and if I could at least get my requested destination if I had to wait until 2012. Unfortunately, I didn't get the answer that I wanted there either. Apparently, due to my medical conditions I'm restricted from serving in many French-speaking African countries, and there are only a handful that I could serve in. This was heartbreaking because the nurse assured me there would only be a few countries I couldn't serve in. So the chances of me serving in Africa, in a Francophone country, are low. Once again, heartbreaking: I've been reading about Africa, studying businesses and social enterprises there- I have been doing everything with the idea that that's where I'd hopefully end up. I have a French language background so why wouldn't they send me there? But I decided that I've made it this far in the process that I won't not take an assignment just because it's not my ideal location. I can go, and if it's awful and I hate it, I can always leave. But something tells me that probably won't happen.

Now this brings me to the question of: what to do with my life between now and then? My current job is ending in mid/late September, and unfortunately I need to keep making money before I depart. I'd love to spend the time traveling, but I don't have a bottomless pit of funds. Ideally I could freelance remotely for a company, which would allow me to live somewhere and still make money. My dream is to spend about a month in Paris, renting an apartment and working while there, so if I could find a freelance gig that would let me do it, it'd be a dream come true. And, the silver lining to this whole thing is that I can go to my very close friend's wedding in October, which I was going to have to miss. As of now, my tentative plan is:

Now until October: continue working for my current job, in Vermont. I want to plan 1-2 more trips to NYC.

October: traveling and visits from friends! My parents are going out of the country so I can have some friends come to Vermont for a weekend. I have a wedding in California on 10/14, so I want to plan an LA visit around then. And, it looks like there might be an opportunity for me to go to London in October and stay with a friend for free, so if it works out I'd ideally stay longer and visit St Andrews for a day or so, and then go to Paris.

November: it's a pipe dream, but I'd really love to spend the month of November in Paris. No it's not the most beautiful time to be there, but I could hopefully rent an apartment for a month and work while there, and spend my time improving my French and doing a bit of traveling.

December: not sure... one idea I have is to apply to work at Kalani, the yoga retreat in Hawaii where my brother just spent 3 months. You do a "co-op" type thing where you pay about $1000 for a month for room and board, and you work about 10-20 hours a week. In exchange you get unlimited yoga classes and the experience of living in paradise.

January: I'm going to apply to staff a Birthright Israel trip, which a few of my friends have done and loved. I'd like to stay for another week and see some friends, plus see places that I've never been to, like Haifa and Caesarea. 

(Other things I'd love to do- just throwing it out there: work on a polo farm in Argentina. Work at a winery in France. Travel to Thailand and lose myself on the beaches. Go back to Greece and observe the insanity going on there now.)

Who knows if any of this will work out, and perhaps something will come along to keep me busy and employed between now and then. I'm not sure if I would move back to New York-- it's hard to be there and save money, but it depends if I find a great opportunity or an affordable place to stay. So if anyone hears of any cool opportunities, let me know! At this point, I'm pretty open to anything. I realized that this is probably the only time in my life when I will have this kind of untethered time, so I'd like to take advantage of it. And as a good friend of mine said to me in a very heartwarming text message, perhaps there's a reason my Peace Corps service is delayed-- perhaps something important is supposed to happen to me in this time period. At this point, I don't know, but I've got hope.

And now for something completely different

So far I've been using this blog mostly for navel-gazing and long winded explanations of my convoluted life situation at the moment. But because at this point in the summer I've been reduced to quietly going insane while waiting for Peace Corps to call me or email me about where or when I am going, I am trying to find ways to busy myself. One of them involves cleaning out my room and continuing to get rid of things, and this weekend while doing so I found a long-forgotten journal from a few years ago. Contained inside were random notes and writings, including a hurried entry about an old movie that became a new favorite. It's a 1960's French film called La Vie de Chateau, starring Catherine Deneuve at her girl-womanly best. The English title is "A Matter of Resistance", which speaks to the film's setting during the French Resistance, in 1944 or 1945. Catherine's character, Marie, lives in a crumbling old chateau with her new husband. Bored with country life and longing for the glitz and action of Paris, she meets a handsome French Resistance fighter and is smitten. However, a German patrol stations themselves at the chateau, and soon their commanding officer starts desperately trying woo Marie. The movie is pretty much as funny as a movie can get when the plot involves Nazi soldiers and war-torn France. I was trying to analyze why I liked it so much, and what I realized is that it pretty much has all the things I love: stories of WWII bravery, French country houses, apples, Calvados, cute bicycles, and of course, a romance. It also has a memorable scene of Marie looking unfeasibly gorgeous at breakfast, eating thick slices of buttered boule dipped into a steaming bowl of cafe au lait-- it's a food movie without even trying to be. Also, I am 99% sure that the sound clip in the middle of the Beirut song "Nantes" is taken from this movie.


Unfortunately it's a pretty hard film to track down. Netflix hasn't had the DVD in years, though I believe Blockbuster has it in their online collection. I've had my eye on movie poster on eBay for a while, so if anyone feels like buying me a gift....

Life in limbo.

When talks of the federal budget, and possible cuts that were to made to it, were all over the news this spring, I didn't really pay attention. Yes, I'm ashamed-- I am such a bad citizen, I should be as familiar with the current federal budget as I am with the details of Kim Kardashian's engagement ring! But you get busy, and life takes over, and Us Weekly is just a little more enticing to read after a long day than www.senate.gov.


And then I realize: wait, aren't I applying for a program that's fully funded by the United States government?


Oh.


So for those of you inquiring, ever so kindly, as to whether or not I have heard anything from the Peace Corps: yes I did hear something, and no it wasn't quite what I wanted. After submitting an updated resume and additional volunteer experience to the Business Placement office, I received the email that so many applicants are getting right now: the Peace Corps experienced budget cuts, a lot of programs were cancelled for 2011, and you may not be able to depart until 2012. I wasn't exactly surprised to receive this email, but I wasn't thrilled, either. I started my application process in February 2010! If I leave next year it'll be a 2 year process. I've gone through so much in this application process that I think a delay would kill me. The recruiter asked in the email if I would not be able to leave in 2012, and I responded and said that while I'd rather wait until 2012 than not be able to join the Peace Corps at all, due to personal circumstances such as my job and housing, a 2011 departure-- which I was originally nominated for-- would be ideal for me. Additionally, I asked them to consider my applicant qualifications when deciding who to grant the remaining few invitations to this year; not to sound self-important, but as a 29-year-old with 7+ years of real-world business experience, I think I'm a little more qualified for a business volunteer position than some kid fresh out of college who happens to have a business degree.


I wasn't expecting to hear anything from them for weeks, but fortunately the placement assistant emailed me on Friday to say she had completed the preliminary review of my file and just needed me to re-write an essay, which I am working on later tonight. Once I submit that, my file will go to a placement officer (the final step!) so I am hoping that's a good sign and that I might still possibly be able to depart this fall.


Fortunately, I am not alone in my predicament, and I have been commiserating online with a lot of fellow applicants who are also staring down the barrel of a possible delay. Everyone's blog I read seems to indicate that they're getting the same email; also, it seems like most of the people getting the September departures are those who were actually trying to leave in June/July/August. Obama said he wanted to double the Peace Corps by its 50th Anniversary, which was this year. Needless to say, that did not happen. (Fun fact: the number of Peace Corps volunteers now is about half of what it was in the 60s, when the program was launched.)


I have to count my blessings, though. While I sit out and wait to hear from the Peace Corps, I at least have a wonderful home to live in, and (for now) a job that I can do remotely. My mom's garden has exploded in lush summer color, with riots of pink from the peonies and roses-- my favorites. The bumblebees are in heaven as they buzz around the flower bush in front of our door, and the butterflies flutter peacefully around the backyard. I can sit on the back porch and absorb some sunshine while I eat lunch, and instead of an afternoon Starbucks break I can take our dog outside to play fetch for a few minutes. The fact that I am, above all, a very fortunate person, is not lost on me.


Friday evening after work I went trail running at Shelburne Farms, possibly my favorite place on earth. I worked here every summer in college, and it was here that I fell in love with getting lost in the winding forest trails, and where I learned to appreciate food that has been dug up from the ground just hours before eating. I hadn't gone running at Shelburne Farms in years, but I decided on Friday it was too beautiful not to. So I went, and chased the setting sun through the woods and meadows, getting myself lost and soaking my shoes with the remnants of the day's rainstorm. I didn't see a single other soul on the trails, except for the quietly grazing Brown Swiss cows and the little brown bunnies that chased ahead of me. A smile crept over my face as I set off, and it did not leave until I finished my run just as the dark was coming. I ran those trails and thought of my 18-year-old self, the summer before I was to set off to college, winding my way through the forest as I listened to my running mixtape on my walkman (I know). It was on these runs that I dreamed of my adulthood and wondered what it would turn out to be. My life that summer seemed to be so imbued with promise and possibility, that youthful spark that comes from the closing of one chapter in one's life and the opening of another. As I re-contemplate the direction of my life 11 years later, I am comforted knowing that I haven't fully lost that feeling. I still think about how my life will turn out, albeit with a little more reality. I still have dreams, some of them wild and never-to-be-realized. But I'm still young enough to know that there are more adventures out there waiting for me.

View of Shelburne Farms looking across the meadows to the lake.

A month in the countryside

Cute little neighbor cow.

It’s now been just over a month since I officially moved out of New York, and it’s hard to believe how much my life has changed in just a short period of time. I’ve given up my apartment in a Manhattan doorman building, my fancy gym membership and my other NYC luxuries like delivered groceries and dry cleaning, and I’ve traded it all in for bucolic pastures, beautiful lake sunsets, and quiet solitude in my parents’ house in the Vermont countryside. The night I arrived I walked outside to stare at the sky for a while—it was like I’d forgotten that the sky could have that many stars.

The actual move and subsequent unpacking was difficult and trying—as all moves are, yes, but this one had the added component of packing up 7 years of my NYC life, and putting things into boxes that I may not open up for years. I was too busy and overwhelmed to really focus on getting rid of any possessions before moving, so that became my project during the 5 vacation days I took before officially starting to work remotely. I wasn’t expecting that part to be so difficult or time consuming, but I was faced with a monumental amount of stuff acquired through jobs that gifted me with clothes, CDs, or kitchenware, as well as a tendency to want to save everything. The extent of my collection never fully hit me until now, but once I got everything unloaded from the truck and brought in the house, I suddenly felt liberated enough to start getting rid of things right and left. I donated about 1/3 of my clothes to a local charity shop, and I sifted through mountains of papers and cooking magazines to select only things that were truly necessary to save. Old tax returns and credit card statements from 3 years ago went into the woodstove in our garage, magazines were cherrypicked only for the recipes I really wanted and then sent to recycling, and although it pained me as a true environmentalist, many things went in the trash.  I also spent  a good deal of time going through all the things I had kept in my bedroom at home and that never made it to New York with me—photo albums, yearbooks, letters and more. Things got painful when I’d happen across something and embarrassing or regretful memories came up, and I realized that essentially going through your life’s possessions is a process that’s riddled with landmines; memory bombs that go off when you least expect it. I cringed when I read clippings of the music column I wrote for my school newspaper— “I wrote that?” I’d think to myself, groaning. “What must my professors have thought?” 

But undertaking this process also brought a tremendous sense of unburdening; a lightening of my life’s load that I knew I needed but had always been too afraid to do. It was almost like I needed the permission to get rid of things, and my potential Peace Corps deployment brought that. Even though I’m still not sure if I’m going to  be invited yet, in terms of my possessions I’m acting as though I’m in. Because even if I don’t end up going, I know I needed this paring down of my life in order to make the fresh start I need, whatever shape it may take.

After that solid week of sifting through absolutely everything in my life, I’ve just about finished. My bedroom finally became habitable, and save for a few piles of bags and papers that I need to finish dealing with, I essentially feel like I’ve completed it and can get on with my summer.  I also spent 2 weeks traveling at the end of May, visiting a client in San Francisco, friends and family in LA, and then spent 10 days in New York to get some face time with my colleagues at the office. It was unbelievably weird to be back in NYC just a few weeks after moving, but not actually be living there. I was cat-sitting for a friend and staying in her downtown apartment while she was out of the country, and it felt so strange to not have a NYC home base.  In general, I feel like my life is in limbo right now, and it’s a strange feeling to have. But I am fortunate that I have a roof over my head and plenty to keep myself busy with while I wait for Peace Corps to finally give me an answer.

An update there: everyone keeps asking me if I’ve heard from Peace Corps yet, and the answer is no. But what I did hear is that I am medically cleared for service—yay! This means my appeal worked and I am no longer medically deferred. So now that I’ve been medically cleared, my file is off to the placement office for the final review. I’m nervous and anxious about this because it’s the last part. Also, I’ve been hearing some rumblings on various other Peace Corps applicant blogs that programs have been cut for 2011 due to federal budget woes, and some people who are getting invitations to serve right now are getting them for April 2012 placements! What will I do with myself from September to April if that happens to me? But I guess I really can’t worry about it until I actually know something.

Finally, a friend of mine sent me an email with something that really resonated with me in regards to this giant life change I’m making. I know I will take a beating from some people about posting this, but what she sent me was a quote from Oprah from her last show (I know, I know). Make fun of me if you want, but her words sum up exactly why I am embarking on this journey, and I felt heartened when I read it. What she said was:

“Your real job in life is to figure out what your calling is, and then do it…. Start embracing the life that is calling you, and use your life to serve the world…. Take responsibility for your life... You are responsible for the energy you create for yourself and the energy you bring to others.”

Ultimately, this is exactly why I am applying to become a Peace Corps volunteer. I need to start embracing the life that is calling me.

FAQs about Peace Corps

Now that I've made the official announcement about my application to become a Peace Corps volunteer, I've been getting a lot of questions about the logistics of the whole process-- which is understandable, because it's a crazy leap for me to be making, and also a program that a lot of people are not very familiar with. Since I seem to be getting asked the same questions over and over, I thought I'd post some FAQs here:


Q: When do you find out if you've gotten in?
A: I don't know, but I am hoping/expecting that I'll know in June. In a nutshell, the whole process works like this: you apply and interview with a local recruiter; if they think you'd be a good candidate, they nominate you to the national office. Then the national office sends you the dreaded medical packet, which takes several weeks and lots of time and money (in doctor fees) to complete. Once you submit that and the medical office reviews it, they'll often ask for more information or lab results before they can medically clear you. And your file doesn't even get sent to the placement office until you are medically cleared. My status now is that I am nearly done with the medical part-- they sent me to get a test to submit updated results, and once I get the results from that I'm hoping that I will be medically cleared. And once that happens, I am hopeful that the placement office will review my file and invite shortly thereafter.


Q: Do you know where you're going if you do get accepted? How do they pick which country to send you to?
A: You don't have any control over which country you're invited to serve in, although you can certainly list your preferences. I listed sub-Saharan Africa (Francophone countries) as my first choice, and the Caribbean as my second choice. There are so many factors involved with which country a volunteer might be placed in, such as your skills and availability, a particular project that they might need volunteers for and when that starts, etc-- plus they also need to factor in any medical issues or religious concerns. (For example, I said that I didn't want to go to any country where I would feel uncomfortable saying that I was Jewish-- so that rules out Jordan and northern Africa.) They also look for language skills, notably French and Spanish, so because I have a substantial background in French I'm hopeful that they will listen to my request and place me in a French-speaking African country. Looking at the information I see online, I am guessing that this could put me in Cameroon, Burkina Faso, Benin, or others. But again, there's no guarantee. 


Q: Do you know what kind of work you'd be doing?
A: I don't, but I've been nominated as a business volunteer. Just like the location, there's no guarantee that if I'm invited it will be for a business role, but I hope that's what I get to do. I'm guessing that kind of role could mean advising local community members on how to successfully start and run a small business.


Q: If you're applying for a fall program, why are you leaving New York in May?
A: This is a question with a complex answer, because there are many reasons why I am leaving right now. First of all, my lease is up at the end of April, and if I were to stay it would be tough to break the lease (also, they are raising my rent!) Second, because Peace Corps often gives only 1-2 months notice pre-departure if they invite you to serve, I thought it would be easiest to pack up my NYC life now and move in with my parents while I wait to hear from PC. That way, I can be a little more nimble if I get the invitation, and not have to deal with packing up wineglasses and cancelling my gym membership while also planning an overseas move! Third, I also feel like spending the summer in Vermont will be a good segue for me if I am to be living, most likely, in a small village somewhere halfway across the world. Going straight from NYC to that would probably be too much of a shock to my system, but a summer in Vermont will allow me a bit of a breather and a way to take a step back from the hectic and privileged lifestyle I am lucky enough to lead in NYC. Fourth, and final, is money. I need to seriously save money if I am going to be out of the job market for 2 years, and although Peace Corps does pay you a small amount while you are a volunteer, it's basically just enough to buy your groceries. I want to be able to have some savings to use for traveling as well as have something to fall back on upon my return. 


Q: Can we get drinks/dinner/coffee before you leave?
A: I'm running around like a madwoman right now as I finish packing (and I am slowly being closed in upon by the towers of boxes in my tiny apartment), so I am pretty slammed up until I actually move on Saturday. However, I will be back in NYC throughout the summer, in May, June and most likely July, so let's go out then!

A new beginning

"I'm leaving NYC and moving to Vermont for the summer, and then hopefully moving to Africa in the fall to join the Peace Corps!" Yes, that's the 'news' in my life right now, but it requires a lot of backstory, so I am using this post as a way to explain what's going on in my life in a channel outside of Facebook. 

A bit of background: I moved to NYC in June 2004, just 2 weeks after graduating from Drew University, and have been working and living here ever since. My first job was at Astralwerks Records, and I had actually been interning there for nearly a year before I started my job, first during the summer of '03 and then commuting in from NJ by train to work all day on Fridays during my senior year. I left Astralwerks in fall 2006, then moved to freelance work with Sugar Communications and Food Network for 6 months after that. I transitioned into full-time work at Food Network and stayed there for nearly 4 years before taking my current job at Venda in March 2010. In short, I've been working non-stop since graduating college. I haven't taken any time off between jobs (though I do feel fortunate to have been continually employed!), and I didn't get to do the requisite post-college backpacking and traveling because of my job. So, I have decided that I need a break from the corporate world. It's been nearly 7 years now in NYC and if I am going to continue on this way, I feel that it's important for me to take a step back and pursue something that's been on my life list for 10 years. Which brings me to...

Peace Corps: I had been interested in joining the Peace Corps since high school, a desire which was magnified during a 2002 volunteer work trip to Honduras with Drew. I attended the info sessions but ultimately decided to put it off due to my job offer. (Picture the legions of people saying "What? You got offered a job at a record label in NYC? You'd be crazy to turn it down!") So I moved to NY and spent my time learning the ropes of the New York business world. I also began to spend a lot of my free time doing volunteer work with City Harvest, the Greenpoint Soup Kitchen, and Met Council. Nonetheless, I still felt the pull of Peace Corps and so in 2009 I decided to finally apply. However, in early 2010 I was contacted by a headhunter and ultimately received an amazing job offer at Venda, so I elected to put Peace Corps on hold to take on the new opportunity, which I knew would be an incredible learning experience. It also enabled me to move to Manhattan and live by myself, which let's face it, was on my "life list" as well. The job at Venda has been challenging but rewarding and I have grown immensely in just one short year. But again, I still felt like there was something greater that I needed to pursue in my life, so I re-opened my Peace Corps application at the end of 2010. And this brings me to...

Logistics: I have applied to become a Peace Corps volunteer, and the program I've been nominated for is doing business advising in Africa, in French, leaving in September 2011. I am indescribably excited about this, because it's exactly what I am interested in pursuing as a career: using business skills as a tool to improve the lives of people around the world. I subscribe to an idea that I term "compassionate capitalism", which means that enabling someone to start their own business and become successful is ultimately a better way to solve global problems than simple foreign aid, whether it be food or monetary donations. Creating strong community-based economies has an enormous trickle-down effect that helps combat problems like malnourishment, disease and lack of education. (Nicholas Kristof and Sheryl WuDunn write about this in length, specifically about the impact of women-owned businesses, in the NY Times as well as their book "Half the Sky".) I am excited about sharing the business skills I've learned in the past 7+ years, and ultimately it's made me glad that I waited to apply for Peace Corps, because 7 years ago I would not have known what I wanted to be a volunteer for-- it took me getting out there in the world to know that the business aspect is what interested me the most.

The program I am applying for leaves in September, but the lease on my apartment is up at the end of April. So, I have decided to move back home to Vermont at the end of this month. In addition to the lease aspect, I feel that living in the countryside for a few months will do me good and allow me to re-center myself before (hopefully) leaving for Africa in the fall. Additionally, because Peace Corps often gives volunteers only a few weeks' notice before they are due to depart, I decided that moving to Vermont and tying up as many NYC loose ends as possible right now (cable bill, gym membership, etc) would allow me to be more nimble and flexible should I receive an official Peace Corps invitation with not much advance notice. Which brings me to...

My current status as an applicant: I have spent an enormous amount of time and money going through all the hoops necessary to become a volunteer. I have completed the application, gotten the recommendations, done the interview, studied for and passed the French language exam, visited my doctors and dentist (10+ visits), and though I am feeling confident about my qualifications as an applicant, I am still waiting for my medical clearance to come through. Once I receive my clearance (hopefully in the next few weeks once I submit results of one final test), my application will go to the placement office, which is where they make the official decision. In terms of timing, I'm hoping to hear from them by June or July. So this brings me to...

Today: Despite the uncertainty of my departure, I've nevertheless decided to go forward with my move to Vermont. I have spoken to my boss and will be working remotely for my company for several months at least, although I don't have a guaranteed end date. My official move date is Saturday April 30th, and on that day I'll be driving a U-Haul to Vermont that's filled with my NYC life.

I apologize for this long post, but for those of you who I haven't been able to speak with about this at length, I felt that it was important to share the background and current status of my plans. Those of you who know me well will probably not be surprised by my desire to join the Peace Corps, so as sad as I am to leave New York and my friends here, I am hoping for everyone's support and understanding as I (hopefully) launch into a new journey in my life.