Wednesday, November 13, 2013

En Tana, avec le jacaranda

It should be said that I really, really dislike Tana (short for Antananarivo), the capital of Madagascar. It's inexplicably in the middle of the country (on an island-- really?), dirty, expensive, crowded, and full of sneaky pickpockets, crazy traffic, and terrible pollution. There are literally no working stoplights in this massive city, and it's impossible to navigate on foot because every inch of the sidewalks are covered in street vendors. When I think of Madagascar, I think of the beautiful coastal region where I live, and so whenever I come to Tana it always screws with my head a little bit as I try to reconcile being here with the idyllic, tropical reality of life at my site.

However, the more time I spend in Tana, the more layers of the city have been peeled back for me, and I've begun to find some interesting things. It's also made me realize that despite its flaws, Tana does have some qualities that should be appreciated. I've recently had to make several unexpected trips to the city to handle some business and medical issues, and so I've tried to make the most of it by exploring, walking around, and actually taking some pictures. The best part of being here when I have been lately (September/October/November) is that it's when the gorgeous purple jacaranda trees are in bloom all over the city.

Jacaranda trees ringing Lac Anosy, in the middle of Tana. Unfortunately it wasn't a great day for photos so you can't really see just how vibrantly purple the blooms are.

The blossoms litter the ground almost everywhere you walk (or stand, in my case here.)
I'm also really enamored by the beautiful old train station at the end of L'Avenue de l'Independence. I've always been drawn to beautiful old train stations, and while I wish this was still a working station, I'm glad that it's at least been restored and has a new life. Right now it's home to a few expensive shops and boutiques, plus one of my favorite restaurants in town, Cafe de la Gare.

A relic of the colonial era, the station is emblazoned with the French name for the city, "Tananarive".

My other favorite piece of architecture is this Telma building which I randomly stumbled across while walking around one day. Telma is the name of the main cell phone/land line provider in the country, and before it was privatized it was the national phone provider, Telecom Malagasy, so I'm assuming this building dates back to when it was still government-run.
The Telma colors are yellow and green, hence the paint job on this building.
An old sign for a Telecom Malagasy payphone.


Here are some other miscellaneous photos of things I found interesting in Tana:
The fancy Hotel du Louvre and its beautiful jacaranda tree.
I'm kind of obsessed with all the post offices in this country because all the lettering is done in this fantastic mid-century modern font. I hope they never modernize! This post office in Tana is my favorite.
Here's a sign for the office of a dental surgeon with some fairly impressive credentials.
"Buvez Coca-Cola!"
Street corner scene.
What the Malagasy call "le propagande"-- election posters for one of the presidential candidates. NB: "fidio" means "choose", and "filoham-pirenena" literally translates to "leader of the country". Hajo is the first name of this candidate.
Tana is a very hilly city. Here's a view looking towards Lac Anosy.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Zaza kely

If there's one commonality among all Peace Corps volunteers around the world, it's the frequency of our interactions with kids. Children, in their natural openness and curiosity, tend to glom on to Peace Corps volunteers in any town-- visiting our houses, saying emphatic hellos, and wanting to help us with daily tasks. I often find myself acting as a sort of combination Pied Piper/court jester for the under-10 set in my neighborhood of Vangaindrano. On days when I am feeling just "over it" and sick of my town and Peace Corps life, I can always count on my little kid (zaza kely, in Malagasy) crew to cheer me up. Here are some photos of some of my favorite little ones:

These are 4 of my favorite girls, and I just love this photo of them. From left to right it's Prisca, Marinah, Rojo (pronounced "rood-zoo"), and Lanisa. I just love Lanisa's little hand-on-hip pose, and the fact that my cat Harry wandered into the picture. Sadly, Rojo and the rest of her family (including her little sister Fenitra who was my absolute favorite) moved to Tana back in October, so I will probably never see her again.
One thing that irks me about this country is that it's bad luck to say that a kid is cute, because there is a superstition that cute kids will be snatched away by some evil spirit. So to 'protect' a kid, you're not ever supposed to comment on his or her adorableness. And since there is also a widely-circulated myth that vazahas (white foreigners) steal babies, I REALLY can't ever say a kid is cute. The problem with this is that there are so many absolutely adorable children, and not being able to say something kills me! So to get around it I say that they are really good at smiling, or something similar.

This little girl, Sarobidy ("precious" in Malagasy) was one of the best parts of my homestay experience during my training in Mantasoa. She came to stay with my host family about a week after I arrived-- I think she was a cousin-- and she just brightened my life whenever I saw her. She loved posing like this for photos and she always had a smile on her face when she saw me and would exclaim "AIM-LEEEEE!" My favorite memory of her is when I was going to fetch water with her and my host sisters Eva and Tanya, and I was wearing my sunglasses (as I always have to in this intense sunlight). Suddnely Sarobidy decided that she absolutely had to wear sunglasses too, and refused to go with us unless she had a pair on like me. So after a mini (comical) tantrum, Eva lent her a pair of hers. Watching this little toddler wearing oversize sunglasses while walking to the water pump was one of the cutest things I have ever seen.

This photo captures one of my favorite Peace Corps memories, one which really epitomized the barrier-breaking cultural interactions you can have when you embrace openness and spontaneity. I took this on the beach in Manakara back in August 2012, when I was hanging out with my friends Matt, Emily, and Nick. We were just chilling on the beach when a bunch of kids came over and started flying their homemade kite next to us. We asked them if we could help/play along, and then Matt asked them if they wanted us to bury them in the sand. Naturally, to a kid, this sounds awesome-- why NOT get buried in the sand? So we got to work, and the kids screamed and laughed and generally had a silly, fun time. I love the combined look of joy and terror on their faces in this picture.

This little ham--  he of the funny faces-- is Fanomeja ("gift" in Malagasy). He's really become one of my favorites, and unlike some of the other kids who decided it was no longer cool to hang out with me after a while, has stuck by my side. He loves to come over and color and has also been helping me in my garden lately. He is definitely one of the poorest kids in my neighborhood, and usually only has one threadbare set of clothes that he wears. So I decided that for Vingt-Six (Malagasy independence day), I would buy him a shirt and pair of pants at a frip (used clothing) seller so that he would have a nice outfit to wear on the holiday like all of the other kids. I told him to come over to my house (so that I could give it to him without all the other kids knowing), and he was so excited to have a nice set of clothes that he changed into them right then and there. Usually I'm kind of against just buying stuff for people, but he is such a genuinely sweet kid that I wanted to do something nice for him.
Here I am (looking extremely unglamorous) with my little neighbor friend, who is also named Sarobidy. I've watched him grow up into a toddler who knows how to say my name, and without fail, he'll squeak out "'kor ab' Ay-ee" (his best attempt at saying "Akory aby Emily") every time I pass by his house. Woe to me if I forget to say hi to him back! Lately I've been indulging him by giving him little rides on the back of my bike (while I walk my bike and hold on to him), and much to his constant delight, giving him piggyback rides as well.
Finally, no blog post about kids would be complete without a picture of them coloring at my house. One of the best things I did was get a set of colored pencils from a volunteer who COSed (finished his service) and invite the neighborhood kids to come over and draw pictures or color in coloring books (which my mom has been sending in care packages). In the beginning, I had them sign all of their pictures, which really helped me learn all of their names. Now they're all extremely zatra (accustomed to) coming over and using the pencils, paper, and books. In the process, they get to practice sharing and picking up after themselves. And, I love that they get to have an outlet for creative expression, which is something these kids rarely have a chance to do.




Friday, October 25, 2013

The ABCs of Peace Corps Madagascar

A few months ago I was sitting on a taxi-brousse and feeling very bored, so I started writing this out in my notebook. Special thanks to Rory and Briana for giving me additional ideas.

A is for: akoho (chicken), ariary (local currency), ambani-volo (the countryside/bush), Airtel (cell phone provider) and akondro (bananas).
B is for: beaches, biking, brochettes (kebab-like meat skewers), and bucket baths.
C is for: cats (necessary rat protection), Cipro (a miracle drug when you have dysentery), cyclones, composé (sort of like pasta salad), Castel (a type of beer), coconuts, and chocolate (what we’re always craving).
D is for: dysentery, Dzama (cheap local rum brand), Delmonaco (ubiquitous sardines beloved by most PCVs), dahalo (Malagasy version of organized crime—cattle bandits), and Dahlia’s (our favorite hotely in Farafangana).
E is for: eggs (in many places, the best protein source there is).
F is for: frip (used clothing stalls), fish, fady (cultural taboos that vary from town to town), fomba (“custom”, or way of doing things), fiangonana (church, or that thing that noisily wakes you up every Sunday), and FYFG (inside joke with my stagemates.)
G is for: giardia, Gold (beer brand), and gony sacks (how pretty much everything is packaged and transported).
H is for: hard drive (where we store and trade all the media that keeps us entertained at site), hotely (small local restaurant), “How’s Life?” (rule to live by), and Happy (Rory’s favorite cookie brand).
I is for: iPod (don’t even think of getting on a taxi-brousse without one).
J is for: jus naturel (delicious homemade juices made with local tropical fruit), Jumbo (the super-vazaha grocery store in Tana where we tend to waste all our money on peanut butter and imported food), and jirofo (cloves, aka the thing that’s currently blowing up my town with money and buyers.)
K is for: kabone (latrine/outhouse), kaza (cassava—so unhealthy but extremely easy to grow, so people eat a lot of it), and kilalaky (really annoying type of local pop music).
L is for: lemurs, lychees (fresh, and only 5 cents a bunch!), Libertalia (pirate-themed beer brand), lambas (cloth wraps worn by local women), and laoka (the side dish that goes with rice... never enough at hotelys).
M is for: moka (mosquitoes), mangoes (10 cents each), mofo (bread), mud (welcome to rainy season), and meva (the PCV transit houses in Tana, Fianar, and Diego, where we like to camp out to use wi-fi and real showers).
N is for: nap (every afternoon during the post-lunch siesta period).
O is for: omby (cow), Orange (cell phone provider), and Outcool (one of our oft-frequented bars in Tana).
P is for: parasy (sand flea that lays its eggs in human feet, which then have to be dug out), pocanelle (aka the ice cream fruit), pineapple (the sweetest you’ll ever taste), paositra (post office), peanut butter (something we’re all addicted to and stock up on in Tana), and palm trees.
Q is for: quatre-quatre (4x4, and we feel like we won the lottery when we manage to score a ride in one instead of having to take a taxi-brousse).
R is for: ranon’ampango (tea-like drink made from boiling the burnt rice at the bottom of the pot), and ravenala (endemic palm tree that is used to build houses).
S is for: Sur’Eau (chlorine solution that we use to sterilize our water and wash our produce), solar charger (vital for volunteers without electricity at site), Skol (beer brand), Smecta (diarrhea treatment), sambos (samosa-like fried snack), shrimp (so cheap!), siesta (that time every afternoon when it’s acceptable to take a nap), Skype (what we live for whenever we get on wi-fi), and Sud Est (BEST REGION EVER REGION!)
T is for: Telma (cell phone provider), tenrec (hedgehog-like animal endemic to Madagascar), THB (the most commonly found beer brand), toaka (alcohol), taxi-brousse (decrepit, overstuffed, cargo-laden vans that are our main form of transportation in this country), and tacos (what we most often cook whenever there’s a PCV get-together).
U is for: USB modems (which allow you to get online almost anywhere) and Uvita (cheap Argentinean boxed wine that is somehow available here).
V is for: vary (rice, the staple food), vanilla, voandalana (souvenirs; literally translates to ‘fruit of the road’), vazaha (white foreigner—a word that all of us hate being called because it usually means tourist/stranger, which we’re not), voalavo (rats, which are in many houses, and are the reason that I have cats).
W is for: water (something we have to fetch from a pump every day), weaving (a common handicraft), Wi-Fi (a rare luxury), and worms (something most of us contract at some point during our service).
X is for: Xavier, the Peace Corps education program director.... the other programming staff are Stan, Lucie, Hoby, Jemima, Lova, and Tovo.
Y is for: yaourt (yogurt—locally made and so good!)
Z is for: zaza kely (little kids, our constant companions and dedicated fan club), zandry (younger sibling and also used to describe newer volunteers), and zoky (older sibling, or volunteers who’ve been here the longest).

Thursday, October 3, 2013

GLOW, baby, GLOW


Even before I became a Peace Corps volunteer, I had heard about and seen pictures of volunteers conducting GLOW camps. Along with world map painting, it’s a PC project that has reverberated throughout all the countries in which Peace Corps places volunteers, from Albania to Zambia. GLOW (yet another Peace Corps acronym) stands for “Girls Leading Our World”, and is a PC-designed secondary project that creates a temporary summer camp, usually about a week long, for volunteers to bring girls from their communities to spend time learning about a variety of subjects, but above all, to have fun, build confidence, and learn that there their lives have more potential than just being a mother and a housewife.

It’s been said, most notably by Nicholas Kristof, that a country’s level of development can often be gauged by looking at the status of its women. So it’s no wonder that for nearly every country that Peace Corps serves in (and which is therefore identified as ‘developing’), the majority of female citizens do not enjoy a high level of opportunity. In Madagascar, for example, the traditional gender role of a woman as a childbearer/childcarer/cook/homekeeper is still very much alive. Far too many girls get pregnant before they finish lycee (high school), and then they drop out to have the baby and get married, and their life falls into the pattern that has persisted for centuries. And then far too often, that woman’s daughter will grow up, and perhaps the family doesn’t have enough money to send her to high school (only the brother), so she gets pregnant and the cycle repeats itself all over again. So part of the goal of GLOW camps is to at least show girls that their lives are worth just as much as men’s; that they are important, they are strong, they are intelligent, and that they can make choices that will help them have the life that they want.

I’d known that I’d wanted to participate in a camp for some time, and one reason was that I don’t feel like I have very much opportunity to work with kids in my town, since my work is either office-based, or field-based working with farmers. More than anything, I just really wanted to do something for the girls in my town. So I joined up with 6 other volunteers from 4 other towns in the Sud Est to hold a GLOW camp in August. We started working on it in early spring, with Teena (a third year extension volunteer in Mananjary with previous GLOW camp experience) taking the lead to write the proposal to receive the grant money from USAID. Each town was allowed to bring 4 campers, chosen from the quatrieme (about 7th-8th grade) level of CEG (middle school). We decided to hold the camp in Mananjary, the northernmost town in the Sud Est region [it’s technically in the Vatovavy-Fitovinany region, but for Peace Corps purposes we group it together with the Sud Est region], which is a beautiful smaller city right on the ocean with tons of great seafood and a laid-back feel. In June I held an essay contest to choose the girls, and I worked with my counterpart Francia to choose the four best entries. So then on Saturday August 17th, Francia and I, along with our four campers Sonia, Jemicine, Emeren, and Angelina, rolled out of Vangaindrano to start the weeklong adventure. 

The first day proved to be difficult and stressful even before we got to the camp. Jeremy, the volunteer north of me in Farafangana, and I had rented a private taxi-brousse to take us and the girls to Mananjary, otherwise we’d never be able to get there in one day. We’d reserved it in advance, revisited the brousse office multiple times to confirm, and paid half of the amount up front. But when we stopped by the brousse company office in Fara that day to doublecheck that we were all set to have them drive us home on the 23rd, they claimed that we told them we were leaving on the 21st, and were about to refuse to drive us. They insisted that this was not a normal route for them and that they had to obtain a special permit, and that there was no way their drivers could wait for us for the whole week. Although infinitely frustrating, this situation proved to be a good exercise for the type of problem-solving that I’ve had to perfect in the Peace Corps. When you work in a country like Madagascar, many, many things go wrong, and in fact few things go according to plan. When this happens you can either wring your hands and complain about it, or you can stop, breathe, and say “ok, this is messed up, so how do we work around it?” For this scenario, both Jeremy and I knew the company was lying—we’d never ever mentioned leaving on the 21st, and we assumed that they’d made a mistake and were just trying to blame us to cover their asses—so I knew it wouldn’t do any good to quarrel with them. At that point there were about 6 people arguing—the driver, the brousse office worker, our 2 chaperones, and then Jeremy and myself. I took a deep breath, interjected, and calmly and quietly said to the woman, “ok, we know there was a mistake, but we still need to get to Mananjary. What can we do to make this happen?” That changed the tone of the conversation from an argument to a discussion on how to work together, and after many phone calls to Teena to figure out logistics, we worked out that we could use this brousse company for our intra-camp travel to and from Ranomafana. And so an hour later, we were finally back on the road. Although this was definitely not something that I wanted to be dealing with on the first day, I was proud of how I handled the situation, and that I was able to work through the argument in Malagasy, in the baking sun in the middle of a crowded taxi-brousse station, with 8 teenage girls impatiently waiting for us.

After picking up another PCV, Nick, and his campers in Ambalona, we finally arrived in Mananjary just as the sun was going down. We set the girls up participating in a series of icebreaker games to get to know each other, and the rest of us got to work helping to get dinner ready, because we’d been tossed another challenge: the cook we’d hired did not show up with the helper she’d promised to bring, and so she was trying to cook for 35 people alone. We finally managed to get dinner on the table—spaghetti with meat sauce—and learned our first lesson of the camp: if you’re bringing girls to an unfamiliar place, it’s best to at least give them familiar food. This dinner was too American for many of them, and that combined with my heavy-handed portions (I’m a Jewish mother even though I’m not yet a mother) meant that there was plenty of uneaten pasta on their plates at the end. But no matter, we had Nick and Jeremy, with their superhuman male PCV metabolisms, volunteer to finish it off.  After we announced this to the girls, Nick and Jeremy soon found themselves being delivered plate after plate of half-eaten pasta. And to their credit, they finished nearly all of it.
Nick and Jeremy, the pasta champs.
 After announcing the chores chart (some girls were on dish duty, while others were on cleaning and water duty), we set up the sleeping area for the girls in one of the classrooms of the CEG where they camp was being held. How do you make a sleeping area in a classroom? You MacGyver it by rigging up mosquito nets onto stacked desks, and place straw mats underneath each one. Credit goes to Jeremy and Nick for coming up with this plan.

My chief responsibilities for the camp were to conduct one session for the campers, and also to work with Jeremy to handle all things water and sanitation. This meant filling up the water filters, and keeping a constantly-stocked handwashing station for the girls to use before every meal (and thereby reinforcing the lesson that Teena taught during her health and hygiene session.) For my actual session, I decided that I wanted to teach something about money and budgeting, since I am a business volunteer. One of the main problems that I see here is that people are not used to saving money, and don’t often think long-term when it comes to planned or unplanned expenses. So this creates a problem in my area especially, when clove farmers receive a sudden windfall from their yearly harvest, and are so overwhelmed by finally having money that they spend it on things like a TV, or clothes, or alcohol, without considering that they should be saving it for the lean times. To teach this, I designed a game that was essentially a very scaled-down version of Monopoly: each girl pretended that she was 30 years old, working in an office, and was married with one school age child. After starting off with giving each girl a small amount of money as ‘savings’ to start, we then went around in a circle, and for each turn, the girl received a ‘weekly’ salary, but had to ‘spend’ (i.e. give back to me) 2/3 of it for essentials such as food, phone credit, and charcoal for cooking. Next she had the option to buy a ‘want’ item—such as new clothes, a vacation, a TV, a fancy phone, etc. But then at the end, she had to pick a card that listed a scenario in which she would have to spend money, such as buying medicine, or needing to pay for home repairs, and if she didn’t have enough money for that, she’d be out of the game. The goal was to try and teach the girls that they have to be prepared for unforeseen expenses, and even if they may technically have the money to buy a luxury item such as a TV, they need to plan for the future and make sure they have money set aside for the inevitable things in life that cost money.

Working with Ode to prepare my session. (Note: Sonia, one of my campers, had braided my hair the day before the camp. It was beautifully done and very intricate, but I look pretty awful in braids. To be considerate, I kept the braids in for a few days but I wore it half-covered with a scarf .)
Mine was one of the first sessions of the camp, and I was really nervous for how it was going to go. I spent some time preparing for it with my counterpart Francia, and Jeremy’s counterpart Ode, who is fluent in English, helped me translate some key concepts that were tricky to express in Malagasy. Thanks to their help, the session went well, and the girls had fun pretending to ‘spend’ money and be able to ‘buy’ things. Although none of them took the bait and bought the big-ticket items like a motorcycle, the act of taking away part of their (fake) money each turn to pay for something mundane (but essential) like taxi-brousse frais or a gift for a family member’s wedding reinforced the concept that life costs money, and so you have to be prepared for it by planning and saving wisely.
Me during my session, with my co-worker Francia to my right.
That night it was my turn in the rotation to sleep in the CEG with the girls and the chaperones, so I bunked down with another volunteer amidst the twittering and chattering of 20 pre-teen/teenage girls. Needless to say, I didn’t get a lot of sleep, especially because we had a very early morning wake-up call the next day: we were heading to Ranomafana! Ranomafana is a beautiful national park and eco-tourist attraction about a 4 hour drive inland from Mananjary. It’s one of Madagascar’s conservation success stories, and is a living, breathing example of how when tourism is developed responsibly, income generation and wildlife conservation can go hand in hand. The girls were really excited to visit (a first time for most of them), and so after loading up in the taxi-brousses, we made our way through the twisting rainforest roads. Our first stop in Ranomafana was the arboretum, which is where my fellow Peace Corps volunteer Jesse works. Jesse met us there and helped with our programming for the girls, which included a nutrition session (conducted by Nick) and an arboretum scavenger hunt to help the girls learn about the different types of plants and trees in Madagascar. Then we headed to the CEG, which Jesse had helped arrange as a place for us to sleep and eat for the 2 nights of our visit.
The group at the Ranomafana arboretum.
The next day, we were scheduled to take a guided hike of the rainforest (and hopefully get to spot lots of lemurs and chameleons), but we woke up to a drizzly, gray day, so we postponed the hike to the afternoon, and instead started the day at the Centre ValBio, which is a beautiful research facility and is Jesse’s other workplace. The girls did a session on study skills with Jeremy and Ode, and then they got to enjoy a special treat enjoyed by Jesse: some time to play around with laptop computers. Most of these girls have never really even seen a computer, let alone been able to use one, so this was a new and exciting experience. The computers were One Laptop Per Child laptops, also known as the $100 laptop, and are very durable and easy to use; Jesse had secured them from a Canadian NGO last year for use in his town. They have a proprietary operating system which is designed to be intuitive for kids, and sure enough, the girls picked up how to use them in a heartbeat, and were quickly drawing pictures, taking photos, typing messages, and even playing around with the computer-to-computer chat. They all had a blast and hated to leave, but we had to get them back for lunch. After lunch, we piled back into the buses and drove up the mountain to the park entrance for our forest hike. Although the animals are more active in the mornings, we nevertheless did get to see some bamboo lemurs, which was the first time I’d seen that type of lemur, and perhaps the first time ever seeing a lemur for many of the girls. Our park tour guide was excellent, and you could sense his pride in showing these girls the forest. One of the most poignant things he said was when he talked about how foreign tourists spend thousands of dollars to come here to see the wildlife, and so the girls should feel proud to be Malagasy and call this country home.
Me showing some of the girls how to use a laptop. Pardon my tired, haggard appearance... it was a sleepless week.

I love the look of pure joy on Sonia's face here.

And Emeren's face of happiness, too!
The next day, we gave the girls the option to stay in town and visit the natural hot water pool in town (Ranomafana means “hot water”, and is so named after the local hot springs), or to go back to Mananjary and visit the beach. About ¾ of the girls preferred to visit the hot springs, so I stayed behind with them and one of our hired taxi-brousses, while the other volunteers went back to Mananjary with the other campers. Seeing the joy in the girls’ faces as they splashed around made me extremely happy: between schoolwork and helping out around the house, these girls barely get a chance to relax, let alone visit a place like Ranomafana. I felt extremely fortunate and glad that I was able to give them this small chance to take a trip and just have fun.

The Vangaindrano girls at Ranomafana! From left: Jemicine, Sonia, Emeren, me (who else sticks out this much?), Francia, and Angelina)
After returning to Mananjary for lunch, more sessions, and then dinner, we set up a special treat for the girls: a campfire with s’mores. It doesn’t get much more typical American summer camp than that! After the s’mores, the bonfire evolved into a dance party where they’d call someone into the center to dance as everybody clapped and cheered. Inevitably, all of us PCVs got called into dance quite often, but I gamely made a fool out of myself dancing, and had fun doing it.
Jeremy instructing on s'more creation.

Me and my campers in our GLOW camp t-shirts!
The next day was our final day of camp, and although the girls wanted the camp to go longer, all of us PCVs and chaperones were ready for it to end: with all the planning, preparation, and daily work, it had been an exhausting experience! We finished off the camp with a few more sessions and a career panel where successful Malagasy women spoke to the campers about their education and career paths. Then we distributed camp t-shirts to all the girls and took some photos, before heading over to a nearby dance club (at 3pm, mind you) for our special end-of-camp party, expertly arranged by Nick. The girls got a chance to dance with the club all to themselves, plus enjoy soda and tsaky-tsaky (fried snacks such as samosas and french fries), and once again, they didn’t want to leave.

The next day we all had early-morning wake up calls to get everything and everyone packed up and ready to go home. Despite our brousse debacle the week before, the transportation home ended up being fine, and our driver showed up at 8AM for the long trip back to Vangaindrano (but first, Ambalona to drop off Nick and his girls, then Farafangana for Jeremy and his crew.) It was a long, long trip back home, and Francia, Emeren, Jemicine, Angelia, Sonia, and I were all ecstatic once we finally pulled into Vangaindrano at around 6pm. What struck me was that when we had all left Vangaindrano a week ago, the girls were shy, quiet, and not talking much. But when we rolled back into town, we were all joyful and exuberant, blasting Rihanna and dancing and singing along together. It may not have been much, but my small effort to have a little impact on these girls’ lives already seemed to have brought out their confidence and happiness. And for that, I came home elated.

Sunday, September 1, 2013

A new year

I feel a bit crazy even writing this, but one of the truest statements I've ever heard came from a reality show-- The Real Housewives of New York City, to be specific. (Ok just hear me out.) It was during perhaps the second or third season, when Jill Zarin's mother Gloria made an appearance. She was talking about the fleeting nature of time and related it by saying "you know one minute it's Passover, and then you turn around, and all of a sudden it's Rosh Hashanah." My friend Danielle and I always quote this around the Jewish holidays because every year we can never believe that the next holiday is already upon us-- wow, that much time has passed already? So recently when I looked at my calendar and realized that Rosh Hashanah was around the corner, I had a bit of a Gloria moment. As a Peace Corps volunteer, you can measure your time service in holidays-- before I go home I'll have spent 3 birthdays and 2 Passovers/High Holidays/Hanukkahs/Christmases/New Years in this country-- and so this time I realized that not only was Rosh Hashanah almost upon us, but this would be my last one in Madagascar. There is no shofar in this country, and as far as I know, no rabbis, so like last year, I'll try to honor the holiday in my own personal way-- a candle lighting and prayer, a honey cake, and by entering a period of reflection and thought inspired by a piece of paper that someone handed me four Rosh Hashanahs ago.

In 2010, I attended High Holidays services with my friend Danny at MJE (Manhattan Jewish Experience), which is a program run for young professionals in New York. It's one of many initiatives in NYC that aims to bridge the gap between Jewish involvement in college (via Hillel) and adulthood (because many people tend to wait until they're married and with families to join a synagogue.) MJE isn't a true synagogue, and when I attended services they were held at the Swedish Cultural Center of all places (hey, in NYC, a space is a space!), but the experience I had there ended up being one of the most impactful of any of my encounters with Judaism.

Earlier that year, I had accepted a promising new job after being recruited via a headhunter. It felt like one of the most adult transformations of my life-- my career was taking off, and I now had the money to move into my own studio apartment in Manhattan, something I'd always wanted to do. But I still had lingering thoughts about joining the Peace Corps. After years of putting it off for various jobs and promotions, I had finally submitted my application in late 2009. But then when this job offer came through, I decided to put my application on hold. I told myself that I'd take the job and use it as a litmus test for whether or not, once and for all, I would actually join the Peace Corps. It was "before I turned 30" or never, I told myself. So I started the job, moved into my new place, and began the new Manhattanite phase of my life: walking to work at my 18th floor office overlooking Times Square, getting my dry cleaning delivered to my doorman, visiting Starbucks way too often, spending much of my free time at Equinox gym, and very often, working late into the night as the vibrant carousel of Times Square's electric billboards reflected in my computer screen. Would this job, and the accelerating e-commerce career that could potentially transpire from it, be enough to sustain me? Would this be enough to let me put the Peace Corps dream to rest?

Ultimately, as you have no doubt guessed, I decided that it wasn't. I loved the new responsibility and rigor of my job, and I found myself growing immensely from the various challenges that it presented. But towards the end of 2010, I realized that I still wanted something more. That something more may take a different form for others, but for me, it was Peace Corps-- which exemplified to me an adventure, a break from a desk job (which I'd held since two weeks after college graduation), a chance to expand my horizons and test my limits, and a life-changing experience that I believed would ultimately make me a stronger person and a better employee, no matter where my career took me.

Coming to this decision wasn't an overnight revelation, because the question weighed on my mind all throughout that year. What really led me to make this realization was the Rosh Hashanah service at MJE, and the accompanying questionnaire that came in the booklet they handed out. It seemed innocuous enough-- just some questions to help you reflect on the past year, and prepare for the coming one-- but when I sat down on my couch and began to answer the questions in my journal, I ended up entering into a period of the truest self-reflection that I have ever had. And that's when I realized that in my heart of hearts, I still wanted to do the Peace Corps. So shortly thereafter I contacted my recruiter, told her to re-open my application, and then a year and a half later, I arrived in Madagascar.

I credit these simple questions with helping me keep my life on track with what matters most to me. I've answered these same questions for myself for every Rosh Hashanah since that first one, and it continues to be an inspiring and reflective exercise. Doing it last year helped me stay focused on my goal of studying for the GMAT and taking the exam so that I could apply to business school (goal: complete!), and this year I'm using it to help me navigate the certain-to-be difficult period when I come home from the Peace Corps and have to figure out how to reintegrate into America.

I'm posting these questions below because I think it's a rewarding exercise for anyone, Jewish or not. I don't know where they came from, only that they were printed in the brochure that MJE handed out, so I apologize to the author that I can't assign any credit. If you have a few moments and are inclined to spend some time on self-reflection, sit down and answer these for yourself. I hope they prove as useful for other people as they do for me. As many of you know, I came to embrace Judaism later in life, in my early 20's, and what has drawn me to it is its ability to help me become the best possible person that I can be. This exercise is just another example of that.

The essential opportunity of Rosh Hashanah is to clarify for ourselves what our truest, “bottom line” priorities are in life. No time is more appropriate than today for asking ourselves some basic questions in order to clarify—and remind ourselves—what is that is truly important to us and who it is we ultimately want to be.

To reflect on some of the following questions is quite apropos on this, the day of judgement:

1.     When do I most feel that my life is meaningful?
2.     Those who mean most to me—have I ever told them how I feel?
3.     Are there any ideals I would be willing to die for?
4.     If I could live my life over, would I change anything?
5.     What would bring me more happiness than anything else in the world?
6.     What are my three most significant achievements since last Rosh Hashanah?
7.     What are the three biggest mistakes I’ve made since last Rosh Hashanah?
8.     What project or goal, if left undone, will I most regret next Rosh Hashanah?
9.     If I knew I couldn’t fail—what would I undertake to accomplish in life?
10. What are my three major goals in life?
a.     What am I doing to achieve them?
b.     What practical steps can I take in the next two months?
11. If I could only give my children three pieces of advice, what would they be?

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Little sky, lots of mud

I’ve decided that July and August in Madagascar are akin to April and May in America—they’re our “spring”. Last month, I started seeing scores of baby chicks toddling around, ducklings learning how to waddle, and zebu calves carefully following their mothers on spindly little legs. July was when the “other” annual rainy season occurred—in which it rains but the weather is cool-- and all the roads turned to muck. Navigating the mud pit of the Vangaindrano market made me extremely glad that I brought a pair of rubber boots. The grand vacances (school vacation similar to our summer vacation in America) began at the end of July, and will last until early October. While the majority of students are enjoying their time off, the terminale (senior year) students at the lycee (high school) are busy studying to take the baccalaureate exam, which is being held on Monday. Those who aren’t studying have taken to the sports field, as the vacation soccer leagues have started up. When I work in the Coldis office, the sounds of the referee whistle and kids cheering at the terrain a few hundred meters away are my ever-present audio backdrop.

The vacation also means that there’s an influx of new people in my town who have come to spend their break here, usually visiting relatives. This can be extremely irritating, because all these visitors haven’t seen me before, and so I have to be subject to the kind of staring and ‘eoooooo vazaha!’ comments that I got when I first arrived here. But, it can also be a nice chance to meet some new people, which is the case with my neighbors’ family members who have come to visit. Sweet little Sophie, from Tamatave, is visiting my neighbor Marcelline along with her dad, who has come to buy cloves and coffee. She already knows my name and loves to come over and visit. And my other neighbor’s daughter (whose name I still don’t know), visiting from Ranomena, is so kind and lovely. Her two sons give me big toothy smiles whenever I wave and say hello, and they’ve become star junior gardeners helping me with my yardwork and gardening projects.

For me, however, it isn’t vacation time—it’s the busiest I have ever been during my Peace Corps service. My work on the SSI project is in full swing, and I’ve accomplished more on it in the last 2 months than I did in the previous eight. In mid-July I organized a training on sustainable clove cultivation and harvest for myself and four Coldis co-workers. The training was held in Manakara and was conducted by Christophe, an agriculture technician with MBG (and also my friend Leo’s counterpart). After receiving that training, we were able to set up the trainings with the actual farmers, so last week the five of us spent 4 days in the countryside towns of Masianaka, Matanga, and Manambondro. We trained a total of 58 farmers, most of whom were presidents of their farmer groups. (Coldis organizes their farmers into collectives with 10 farmers in each.) And despite the remote locations, I also MacGyver-baked a gingerbread cake for each of the trainings to share with the farmers, because most of them have never even tasted food with cloves before. I explained that it was a traditional Christmas cookie (or cake) in America, but that all the spices for it are actually grown in Madagascar: cinnamon, cloves, and ginger. I think it was a nice addition to the training, and judging by the lack of crumbs left in the pan, I’m pretty sure the farmers enjoyed it.

Farmers in Masianaka enjoying some cake after the training.
Each of the farmers received booklets about sustainable clove farming (which I sweated and stressed over for months, but finally finished compiling at the end of July), and they are supposed to share these guides with their other farmers and train them on what they learned. Farmers that receive the training are then eligible to receive free zana-kazo jirofo (young clove trees) to plant, of which we are supposed to distribute 15,000 each year. Recently I realized that simply finding 15,000 clove trees to buy would be a project in and of itself... not to mention getting them out to these farmers. So that’s my next hurdle.

The product of my blood, sweat, and tears.
The last time I was out in this area was when I visited Manambondro around July 1st to meet the farmers there and give them an introduction to the SSI project, and already then the clove trees were beginning to blossom. But what a difference a month makes: driving around these countryside roads, in an area which is essentially “clove central”, I saw hundreds upon hundreds of trees just exploding with buds. It’s also quite different from a year ago, because cloves are an every-other-year crop—meaning that one year they’ll be abundant, while the next year, the harvest will be minimal. So because 2012 was a low year, 2013 should be an abundant harvest. We passed by kids harvesting the cloves using ingenious homemade bamboo ladders; we also passed by kids harvesting them the quicker but extremely destructive way, by just cutting off the branches. Teaching the farmers why this is not a good long-term harvest strategy (because it reduces the number of cloves the following year) is one of the tenets of the sustainability training we’re giving.

Introducing the project to the farmers in Matanga. We held the training at the local elementary school.
Although Coldis encourages their farmers to leave the cloves on the tree as long as possible to let them grow to maximum  size (and thus be able to sell them for the best price), many other farmers are already going ahead and harvesting their trees, probably because they’re in serious need of the money. Right now cloves are selling for about 14,000 Ariary a kilo—approximately $7, which is a lifeline for a hungry family. But, the price per kilo should go up later in the buying season, so many farmers are also holding on to their cloves as long as they can. The roads in the southeast are now lined with tsihy (woven straw mats) spread with cloves drying in the sun. The ‘raw’ buds are pale green with pink tips, but after three days in the hot Madagascar sun, they’ll dry to a rich brown color. Driving or biking past these mats of cloves tickles your nose with their sweet and spicy aroma.

Scheduling and conducting these training sessions was one of the biggest accomplishments of my Peace Corps service, and something that I was extremely relieved to have behind me (although I now know we’ll have to schedule more.) After our final session was over, I drove back to Vangaindrano with my coworkers feeling relieved and content, and thrilled to be getting back to my house after four days without electricity or cell phone reception. My coworker Titus drove us in his car for these trainings, and on the way back we gave a ride to a local Manambondro woman who was going to Vangaindrano for the week. Funnily enough, her name turned out to be Emilie—the first namesake I’d met in Madagascar, which is surprising to me given how many people here have French names.  As we navigated the muddiest part of the road leading out of Manambondro (during which we got stuck 3 times), we passed through an area called Kidilanitra where a lot of the Manambondro farmers live. In the dialect of Malagasy spoken in my area, kidy mean “little”, and lanitra means “sky”, so we asked Emilie why it was named this. She said that it’s because there are so many trees there that when you look up, the sky is small. Looking out the window at the rows and rows of pink-tipped clove trees, ravinala palms with their leaves spread like an open hand, banana trees with their purple-wrapped bunches of fruit hanging like a necklace, and majestic two-stories-tall lychee and mango trees, I thought about how much I love being surrounded by all of this green. And it suddenly hit me that with only about 8 months left in my service, I want to soak it all in as much as possible. So until April, I’m trying to enjoy and explore as much of my area as possible. I’ve lived here long enough that sometimes I forget what a special and beautiful country Madagascar is, and as much as I love New York, when I’m back there I know I’ll be pining for afternoons spent in my backyard hammock, lazily reading while a tropical breeze sweeps over me and into the rice fields below. If I could bottle that feeling, I would.

Friday, August 2, 2013

Still here!

Recently I looked at my blog and was shocked to realize that it’s been about 3 months since I last posted. I’ve tried to figure out why that is, and the only thing that comes to mind is that because I’ve now been here almost 17 months, and can count down the remainder of my service in months instead of years, I don’t feel as though I have as much to write about! I guess that because I’m pretty settled into the realities of life here, things are not quite so noteworthy-- at least in my eyes.

Now that I am sitting down to write something in order to get this blog up to date, I find myself at once having both everything and nothing to say. When I first think about it, I feel like nothing really has happened lately. But in fact, the past 3 months have been busier than ever. Right after the malaria event that I last posted about, I left site for 5 weeks, which I spent in South Africa, Botswana and Zambia (to take the GMAT exam and then have a vacation with my family), then in Tana for my Mid-Service Conference and to take care of some medical appointments. Then when I returned to site the first week of June, I jumped back into my main work project, as well as worked on preparations for the GLOW (girl’s leadership) camp that I am putting together with some other volunteers in the region. I also worked with my language tutor to develop a listing of words in the Antesaka dialect of Malagasy (the dialect spoken in my area) for inclusion in a new edition of the Malagasy-English dictionary. At the end of June, I went up to Fianar for a small Peace Corps training and to meet with my boss at the Coldis office there, then I returned south for our thrice-yearly regional volunteer meeting (VAC; it’s a boring acronym that I won’t waste your time with), which for the Sud Est was held in Sandrohy, a neighboring town of my fellow volunteer Nick’s site. We chose Sandrohy because our previous 3 regional gatherings had been held in bigger towns, and so for this one, we decided that we wanted some outdoorsy fun. Nick and Rory, our Sud Est regional leader, put together an amazing weekend of camping and hiking in the gorgeous mountains surrounding Sandrohy. We all arrived at Nick’s site on a Friday, biked 14km into the countryside where we had lunch and chilled out at a waterfall, then biked another 2km further into the countryside, imbibed some fresh coconut water, and hiked an hour through rice fields and up into the mountains to our camp site, which was breathtakingly situated on the top of a mountain with 360-degree views. (The sunrises were epic.) We camped for two nights, enjoyed lots of s’mores and ate rice and beans way more than we wanted to, and then on Sunday hiked back down the mountain, which, because it had rained the previous night, was muddy enough to make me fall slam-down on my tailbone no less than 5 times. Even though I was in pain, I still had to bike back, so I did some awkward yoga and stretching in Nick’s friend’s house, then hopped on my bike for the 16km back to Nick’s house. And then 17 of us squeezed into a taxi-brousse (with 14 bikes strapped to the top) back to Manakara, which ended up being the most entertaining brousse ride I’ve ever had.

Since getting back to site after VAC, I’ve been a busy bee working on my SSI (Sustainable Spices Initiative) project for Coldis, and biking a ton in order to get back in shape and lose the weight I put on indulging in all the good food in South Africa. The first week of July, I traveled 58km south to Manambondro to introduce the SSI project to the clove farmers there, which was the last of 3 countryside towns that I had to visit. Then I biked to Matanga (Leo’s site) to work with his counterpart on the SSI project, and also fit in an amazing 4th of July party that included an indescribably good Southern feast of pulled pork, sweet potatoes, and pseudo-collard greens, plus a dance party featuring lots of Robyn songs and a techno remix of “America the Beautiful”. I’ve never felt so patriotic. Then, after a few days at home I left site once again to go to Manakara for the training on sustainable clove farming that I’ve been putting together, then went 160km further north (100km of it by bike!) to Mananjary for a GLOW camp meeting that weekend. After the camp meeting I got back to site, finished writing the training guide for the clove farmers, then returned to Manakara this past weekend for a going away party for my fellow volunteer Meghan, who has finished her service and is about to head home to America. Just when I think I’m going to have a quiet few months at site, all of a sudden I’m busier than ever.

Now that I’ve been at site for more than a year, I’m watching the months tick away and comparing things to how they were in 2012, when I was brand new to Vangaindrano and still figuring out how to exist here. I spent pretty much my entire first month suffering from shock (at the drastic change in living conditions from the training center) and anxiety (over the terrible rat problem in my house). It took me a full 3 months to really feel tamana (settled and at-home) in my house, and because I just didn’t feel comfortable in my town or my home, I spent a significant amount of time socializing with other volunteers in Farafangana, which is my banking town. Now, by contrast, I am hesitant to spend too many weekends away from site. As much as I enjoy socializing, I am extremely comfortable where I live, and I no longer feel like I have to escape. I have my neighborhood kids who come over to draw pictures and color, my little garden that is a never-ending project, my very comfortable backyard hammock that is a perfect reading spot, and still plenty of areas in town that I want to spend more time exploring on my bike. I’ve also become much more integrated with people in my community, which is probably the most rewarding aspect of my Peace Corps service to date. Last year on Vingt-Six (June 26; the Malagasy Independence Day), I was still fairly new to site, and was bewildered about what to do with myself, so I sort of wandered around town trying to figure out how to celebrate the holiday. But by contrast, for this year’s Vingt-Six, I wasn’t worried about what to do. I went to visit my neighbors, then went to watch the town parade with some of their kids, before inviting them over to my house to drink juice and paint our nails. (I also had an unfortunate incident where I was served a plate of potato salad by my neighbor that was covered in raw egg, and I was pretty much forced to eat it. My GI system was not especially pleased about that.) Still, even though I’m finding myself much more integrated and comfortable here than I was a year ago, some things haven’t changed. I still relish being able to close my door at the end of the day and inhabit my own little world until bedtime, free from inquisitive kids and prying neighbors who always ask where I am going, what I am doing, what did I buy at the market. And even though I am accustomed to living without western luxuries, I am still longing for the day when I will once again own a refrigerator and be able to take a hot shower.

So now here I am, with just over 8 months left in my Peace Corps service. I’m beginning to give away unneeded clothing and household items to neighbors and new volunteers, and I’m continually patching my two ratty pairs of jeans because I can’t justify buying a new pair this late in my service. Since I’ve already been here for 17 months, being here for 8 more doesn’t seem like long. But lately when I talk to friends and family, I’m hearing reactions along the lines of “you’re STILL there?”... or, “you don’t come home until May 2014? But that’s still so far away!” As I wrote about in a previous post, time passes in the Peace Corps both at a snail’s pace and at warp speed. You could be bemoaning the fact that you still have over a year left, and then all of a sudden you get busy with a project and realize that you only have a few months left. For me, the next 8 months will undoubtedly go quickly, but not until I get through the months of August, September, and October, which will be chock-full of work on my primary and secondary projects. After that, with 2014 in close range, it will really start to feel like the end.

Being in my final 1/3rd of service has made me understand why so many PCVs extend their service for the optional third year, because I’m just now beginning to experience the fear of returning to America after working so hard to integrate and establish a life in Madagascar. For the longest time I kept thinking that I couldn’t wait to get back to my life in the US.  But just recently I had a lightbulb moment when I realized that actually, I don’t have that life anymore. I gave up my apartment and left my job, and NYC will probably be so changed by the time I get back that I’ll feel like a newcomer. Friends have moved away, and it seems like everyone I know is moving in with a significant other/getting engaged/getting married/having babies. And where does that leave me? I, too, want to grow and move further into adulthood, but I can’t—yet. I feel slightly stifled and stunted, knowing that I need to make some serious life adjustments when I get back, but unable to do anything about it from here. It’s bizarre and scary to think that I have no idea where I will be living or what I will be doing a year from now.  I’m still planning to apply to business schools, but what if I don’t get into a good school, or get enough financial aid to be able to afford it? And if I decide to go back to work instead after Peace Corps, how on earth can I look for a job all the way from Madagascar? As someone who has always thrived on looking forward and planning ahead, it’s extremely scary to legitimately have no idea where I will be this time next year.

Right now, the best thing that I can do is continue focusing on my work projects to make sure that I finish my service feeling fulfilled. I know that if I think too much about life-after-Peace Corps, I’ll go a little bit crazy, so I’m trying to balance my need to plan and prepare with the necessity of focusing on my work here and living in the present. Luckily, I have enough work projects and travel plans to keep me busy, and I’m sure that by the time my COS conference rolls around, I’ll be thinking “but I need more time! I’m not ready to leave!”